Loof time where I kept my options opened wide and my legs closed. Yeah this drink is as virgin and as chaste as I am. Back from Korea and now I am waiting for uni to start soon. On the other hand, I am making attempts to move on from something that never was concrete. And I liked it. This has finally made me feel alive. We do require the need to feel morose and that fuzzy feeling. Yet when one of us stops trying, the temporal feeling of loss gets into us. We don’t need to be anything more. I am never anyone’s to begin with. I was just waiting for a passerby and a passing fancy to entertain the mundane rigours. Perhaps, I was just distracted for a moment and I forgot what attention felt like. I was never accustomed to it anyways. I had to be clever enough to walk away before getting pushed just as described by you from your past experiences with other girls. But silly enough to have fallen for you. Remember when I said liking you was already fucking my ideals? Yes, something new and like the strokes song- I’ll try anything once, the idea of someone to sit you down/shut you up/ I’ll come down/ and I’ll get along with you thing seemed enticing. Maybe it was the wit and banter? Or the times you challenged me when I falter to answer you. I liked you but of course I knew I am never your type. Ironic how you once said you liked all sorts of girls. Guess you forgot to list out virgins from the list. It hurts though. For what I am worth, you guys don’t give enough credit when due. It is okay, I will be flying off again. I’m just good at running away. Thank you for making me feel special even if it didn’t mean anything to you.
